Monday, May 4, 2009

Missing In Action.....For At Least Awhile



I'm alive. Just. But I am alive.

It has been a whirlwind of a life for me since the last time I posted. I've been so snowed under that I haven't even blogged over at hisbliss.com. Most of the drama in our life is now over. We achieved our aim during the battle we were fighting. And I'm sorry if that sounds cryptic, but the court orders prevent me from discussing anything online. So for those who know what was going on and want the low down then feel free to email me. Those who don't know and would like to, again, email me and I'll fill you in.

Speaking of email, I've changed email addresses and the only one I am now using is lisajane@hisbliss.com, so if you could all change it, that would be awesome. And please feel free to shoot me an email so that I can re-add you email addresses to my new address book.

Ugh, have I been having a hell of a time with my weight loss journey. The anti-psychotic medication they were using to help me sleep was working wonderfully, but it was stacking on the weight and despite eating right and training hard, I found that I had put on over 2 kilos. Let me tell you, this shattered me and I was at a loss of what to do.

Thanks to my doctor, we've since found a new medication that doesn't make me gain weight and in fourteen days (with no training, just eating right), I had lost 2.3 kilos, so we were thrilled with that.

I have a goal I am working towards and its a big one. I will share it with you all over at the forum, due to the monster still reading here, I don't really want her in on what is something amazingly special and important to me.

We are back training strongly now that the school holidays are over and let me tell you, I am sore all over. My cardio is going well and I am finding that I am doing it because I want to, not because I need to. I've finally stopped looking at it as a chore and more of a help. My eating is going well. Even with my free meal, I am finding I am having it in the middle of the day and not going to far overboard with what it is I eat.

So, I am looking forward to being back on track. This week's small goal is to lose 800 grams to get me down to a low that I haven't been to in a long time. And despite the fact that it is TTOTM, I am determined to shift this 800 grams by next Monday morning, no matter what it takes. There is no reward for doing it this time, it is just for personal gain.

The hiding food and pigging out I am pleased to say has stopped. I still have a little bit of chocolate here and there, not very often, but I find a little now and then stops we wanting a lot all the time.

I am seeing a psychologist to deal with some of the issues in my life, and although it is early days, I am finding she is helping and that it has been easier to open up to someone new, than I thought it would be. She has been able to help me put some safeguards in place to help with my relationships and that is a big relief off my shoulders.

The dialouge with mending fences with my parents is going slowly, but I am in no rush. We are sending messages back and forth to each other via facebook and although they are mostly funny little jokes, I am thinking it is a start and I am so looking forward to building on that. And again, I say thankyou to the lovely Lia for that. Because it was when she spoke of losing her parents that she spurred me into action to make the move before it was to late for me. I want my children to know their grandparents and I want to learn all that I can about the people who raised me. Because there isn't a whole lot I know and it saddens me to say that.

Anyhow, right now, I am off to bed, but I will update my secret goal over at the forum either tonight or in the morning and I promise to be a better blogger from now and on.

Thank you to those who have emailed me and left me posts over at the forum telling me they miss me. I've missed you all too but I'm back now.

Be afraid.

Be very afraid.

xoxox
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