Friday, January 9, 2009

My Bucket List....



The picture above is my bucket list.

This is the woman I want to look like. There is a picture of her enlarged and stuck on my fridge for motivation. So yeah, I didn't have to go searching for mine, I found them all in one person. Lucky me.

I think I'd be luckier if I could look like that now. How awesome would it be to wake up in the morning, fall out of bed and just - be transformed?

I'm thinking part of it would be good and part of it would be bad. I love my training at the gym. Even when it is dreaded shoulder day. I get there and I am dragging my feet, but by the time I am finished, I am soooo glad I went.

I wish, of course, that I hadn't of let my weight get as out of hand as it did. And there are a million and one things I could say were the reason I did. But it wouldn't really be the truth now, would it? And here in LJ land, I do try to deal only with the truth. As dark and horrible as it may be.

I gained all the weight due to a car accident. Then after I was able to get up and walk again, I just got lazy. It was easier to say, I don't feel like driving to the gym today, I feel like a burger from Macca's instead. Never mind the fact that I had to drive PAST the gym to reach Macca's. Yeah, right. I don't know how to reconcile that one in my mind, cos I just can't.

I did this to myself and I have to undo it now. I can either sit here and feel sorry for myself, or bite the bullet and do something about it. And I've chosen to do something about it. But again, I've been thwarting my own efforts. I have a husband who is a kick ass training partner, he is one of my greatest sources of inspiration AND he is my own personal dietician. Yet I keep stuffing it up.

Why?

Good question, but alas, something I don't have an answer to.

Why do I still eat chocolate and potato chips when I don't want to look this way anymore. I know I have to tighten this up. I have to drink more water and eat better food and stop snacking on bad stuff.

I have said it over and over again since the first of January 2009, that I am tightening it up and I have still not tightened it up totally. So this morning I did. It is now 12.10pm and I haven't eaten anything I shouldn't and I've got a large bottle of water next to me as well. I've had some diet jelly for a snack and I am about to munch on an apple. When hubba hubba hubby gets up, I am going to take HIM and myself off to the gym and smash back and then hit some cardio.

Note to self: YOU NEED TO DO CARDIO EVERYDAY OR YOU WONT GET RID OF YOUR BIG ASS.

How's THAT for some cold hard truth.

I'm the only one who can do this. I have a great support network around me. Some awesome family and friends who are all more than happy to give me the motiviation, but I am the only one that can do the work.

So here it is.

I AM BACK ON TRACK AS OF THIS MORNING AND I WILL NOT FIND EXCUSES TO PUT IT OFF. I AM GOING TO BE IN MY ED HARDY TOP AND MY NEW JEANS BY VALENTINES DAY.

And I give all of you out there who read me, full permission to kick me in my ass if I don't do it. All kicks in the ass are welcomed and much appreciated.

So yeah, ummm kick away. I think. LOL.

Have to confess I was as disappointed as HELL that I couldn't train with the lovely Lia this morning. The joys of having bi-polar mean that sometimes doctors appointments have to be scheduled whenever you can fit them in and everything else has to go via the wayside. At least until next week.

I know I promised that I would update here more often, but the unwanted visitor is still lurking. Again, I don't know what they hope to find, the only stuff talked about here is me and my fat butt. So whatever they are searching for, they will not find. Unless they have some kind of fatal attraction to my butt. And hey, if that is the case, then they should tell me and I will email them a pic. I'm kinda getting creeped out. Having a stalker isn't all that fun.

BUT. And I say BUT, I have found a way to stop the unwanted visitor and after I post this up on my blog, I will be off to thwart their efforts at wanting to live my life and sticking their nose in at everytime.

Can we say bye bye stalker? Indeed we can. See:

BYE BYE STALKER!

Woohooo, I feel all empowered and shit. I am woman hear me roar etc, etc.

Back later with more.

xoxo
Posted by Lisa Jane :: 9:58 AM :: 4 Comments:

Post / Read Comments

---------------oOo---------------