Tuesday, December 30, 2008

On Being Slack Or Why I Haven't Posted...



So, the question is WHY haven't I posted? The answer is easy. I've got an unwanted visitor. There is someone lurking around my blog whom I wish would go away. Why they feel it neccessary to keep coming here I don't know. All I know is that they keep coming and its starting to annoy me. I know they keep coming here because my statcounter gives me their IP address and all the other information about them. I do know that I am contacting my lawyers tomorrow so that I can begin some sort of legal action for harrassment. That and I am contemplating contacting their workplace to enlighten them of their employees need to keep visiting my blog on a work computer. Hopefully, that will be enough to make them go away. If not, then I will have to make the blog private.

Other than that, things have been up and down in the world according to LJ. Christmas came and went and an awesome time was had by all. You've all seen the pics of my rings and very soon I will be posting some pics of the new and improved LJ. There is still a long way to go and I am a work in progress my beautiful husband tells me. His protegee is what he calls me. Not that I mind.

We've been back training since Saturday and it seems to be booming along. I am finding my weights are going up each time I train and today was 130lb seated rows. Have to be excited by that! Eating has been nice and healthy and very, very clean. Another thing to be excited about.

I was thinking today how much I love training with my Michael. I am so glad that our love of the gym is something that we have in common. Its something that I know irritated others in his life because they had no desire to get involved. For me? Its just another thing we have in common that strenghtens our bond.

I am on the hunt for some new recipes to add to the ever growing catalogue that I have. So if anybody has some, please feel free to let me know.

I am also starting to ramp up the walking now. Have to get into practice for the 5km walk I am going to go on with the lovely Lia. Its for an awesome cause and I can't wait to do it.

Anyway, thats about it from me for now.

I promise to stop being so slack with my posting and update a little more regularly.

xoxo
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Friday, December 19, 2008

I Did It...I Did It



And indeed I did...

I got my rings on and with absolutely no effort. They slid on like they had been made to fit my finger. Like I said in my earlier post, my beautiful husband had them resized small than originally planned. And I have to confess I was scared witless that they wouldn't fit.

But they did.

And to say I am excited is an understatement.

I was supposed to be waiting until christmas day to get them, but seeing as neither of us as to in to christmas this year, he decided to give them to me today. I am so looking forward to seeing my two girls that nothing could possibly top it. And I don't mean that in a bad way either.

I am not too worried about the Ed Hardy top at the moment, for the simple reason it is going to be way to cold to wear it. Not to mention the fact that I just don't think I have achieved that goal. The new jeans goal hasn't been reached yet, but I am still working towards this. I am not looking at this as a failure but rather as just working towards it a little slower. Hopefully to make sure that when I get there this time, I will stay there.

The lovely Lia left a response to one of my posts over on the forum the other day, and she said that it didn't matter how many times I failed and I've realised that is right. So I am taking everything slowly now. I am not in a hurry to learn all my lessons over again.

I don't really care if I am not dressed perfectly and wearing new jeans on christmas day. All I care about is that my family is together, everyone is happy and healthy and that all of our children have a great day. This is the first full family christmas Michael and I have had together and we are both looking forward to it so much.

My eating has been off lately. Due to an unexpected trip, the fact that we haven't been able to get to the gym to train and that life has thrown us so many curveballs we haven't had time to breathe. But I am home again and we are back on track from tomorrow morning.

I got a nasty surprise this afternoon when I got on the metal monsters. They told me I had gained four kilos. Umm yeah, rightio then. I doubt it, I seriously doubt it. Not in a week and a half anyway. I am so exasperated with them and just glad that I am not relying on what they say anymore. As long as my clothes keep getting loser and my rings still fit nicely then I know I am safe.

Other than that there is not a lot I can report. I can't, I'm afraid, tell you all what happened in court the other day here. Due to a court order prohibiting anyone talking about it on the internet my lips are sealed. Never fear, I have contact details for most of you, so if you want to know what the outcome was, then feel free to email me.

I'm off to wrap up christmas presents and get organised. It is only three sleeps now and my two girls will be here and I am counting the minutes.

Have a great night!

xoxo
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Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Amused and Bewildered



And I must be. Want to know why? Then please, read on.

You have to love statcounter. I know that I do. It’s a handy little tool that tells me who is on my blog, where they come from, their ISP, the suburb and country they come from, what posts on my blog they’ve read and how long they’ve stayed for. And it amazes me just who turns up and how long they stay. I seriously had no idea that what I wrote was of such great importance for people who hate bodybuilding and have no apparent interest in the lifestyle I live.

Unless of course they are coming here to live vicariously through me. Because they don’t have the will or the emotional fortitude to live it themselves. Maybe they want to but they are to scared? Maybe they just don’t have the brains. Oh well, it’s kind of nice to know that my boring little existence is so interesting to someone else.

Wow, I have my very own stalkers and I’m sorry, but I have to confess I am less than impressed. Although I am a little bewildered and slightly amused. I wonder just what on earth they think they are going to learn about me by snooping here.

Here's a hint. Try emailing me and asking or better yet, leave a comment. If you dare.

I'll be back with a more substantial post later. So much has been going on in my world that I haven't had time to breathe. Until today that is.

xoxox
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Thursday, December 11, 2008

Mummy Moment And I'm A Worn Out LJ



Here is the most recent photo of my beautiful husband and our beautiful daughter Montana. It was her grade six graduation tonight and she shone up there like the bright star she is. We are both so proud of her. Her teacher told us tonight that she has fit in like she was there all along and that it isn't at all obvious that she only started school there three months ago.

I'm tired and worn out today. We trained legs this afternoon and I went heavier again on most sets. I managed to increase my weight only the leg press to 90kg which I was very happy about. Gotta love it. We had home made chicken and pineapple pizzas for dinner tonight. Quick, easy and guilt free.

I'm so very tired tonight and I am off to bed.

xoxox
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Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Things That Make You Go Hmmmmm



I suppose the title of this post pretty much says it all, and if you were unsure, then the graphic probably would have cleared it up for you. I'm so tired that it's beyond funny. It is 3.02am on Wednesday morning and I am blogging. Why? Because I've just gotten home from work and I am far to wired up to sleep.

I got home this morning at 2am, only to get a phone call from the scatterbrain who is staying at work, telling me that she set the alarm off and could I come back and turn it off. Can I say fuckity, fuck, fuck, fuck. Hmm I think I just did. So back IN the car I get, drive all the way BACK to work, unlock the place and turn off the alarm. How did the alarm go off? She opened the door to go out for a smoke. Christ on crutches I could throttle people when they tell me stuff like that and the last words I said to them were DO NOT OPEN THE DOOR OR THE ALARM WILL GO OFF.

Anyhow, I digress, so let's get back on track.

Things are going okay in the land of LJ. I am, as I said, very tired. I am feeling rather foggy at the moment due to the meds I am on. I am mixing two together at the moment and although they don't increase my appetite, they do effect my mental alertness. I do things like forget to post the letters in my hand when I am in front of the letter box. I go off into vague land when I am supposed to be cooking something and then wonder how it burnt. And the best one's are the fact that I am seeing spots before my eyes and my sex drive is out the window. And that sucks the worst.

I've spoken to my doctor about it and it's only another two weeks before the original medication he started me on will be working well enough that I can drop the second. And then the fuzzy vague feeling will go away. It's affecting everything I do, right down to my training. It's very hard to lie flat on a bench and hold a loaded bar above your head when the room is spinning. Thank god for Michael always being there to spot me. Now if only he could fix the bi-polar and then I wouldn't need antipsychotics anymore.

I had an arguement with someone the other day about my medications. Apparently anti-psychotics are for people with a mental illness and bi-polar isn't a mental illness. Last time I checked it was. The question then asked of me then, was do I really think it is severe enough to warrant medication or do I make it seem worse than it is to get good drugs from the doctor.

Sure, I LOVE the side effects. Between the no appetite, no sex drive, spots before my eyes, constant headaches, tiredness, falling asleep in the middle of the day and so on and so forth, it makes me wonder what goes on in peoples heads and it seriously tells me that the fact that I don't disclose my illness to everyone, was the right decision.

I have shared it recently in a post on the forum and I share it with those closest to me like my children, my family and Michael. But other than that I pick the people I tell carefully, because I refuse to have it used against me anymore and if people can't handle it? Then stiff shit for them.

We trained today. Yaaay us! We smashed chest and bi's and I went heavier again in some exercises, but found I was lacking in others. I am not to concerned about it, because I know that everyone has an off few days. I know this for a fact, because my beloved husband was in the same boat last week. Today is tighten the belt day. Time to suck it up and stop making excuses. I want to blitz it for the new two weeks and really make it work for me, that means cardio twice a day with no excuses and training four days a week. It's not my training that is lacking, its my committment to the cardio and I know I have to find a way to learn to love it. I know I just have to suck it up and make it part of my daily routine.

Food has been all over the place but it can't have been to bad as the scales are showing a one kilo drop yet again. So slow and steady and when I get up in the morning it won't be crumpets I have for breakfast but oats. I love my oats and I am glad I am having them again.

I have a full day today and while I am having breakfast, I will be preparing my food for the day to take with me, so that I have no excuses to eat off plan. Seeing as I got a bit of a bonus in my pay this week, I will be going out to by a cooler bag to lug my food around in. So if any of you lovelies out there in blogland have suggestions of what type to buy and where I can get one from, please, just shout.

On that note, I am going to take my now tired butt to bed and snuggle my husband. I have to be up in five hours and its going to pass very quickly.

Night shift sucks.

xoxox
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Friday, December 5, 2008

Lorna Jane and KOKO Black Or Who's A Spoilt LJ?



I've had such a big day today. We had more court related stuff that we had to attend today. For me? That meant sitting in the waiting room of a family therapist for two hours and then spending twenty minutes with her myself. These are the things we do for the people we love and I would go through anything for Michael if it meant we could have our beautiful sons back in this house.

Anyhow, I am getting off track here. We dropped into Westfield Doncaster on the way home, we had some lunch and guess who spotted both Lorna Jane AND Koko Black? Me, me, me. And guess who let me leave Westfield with something from both. My beautiful husband. What a sweetie he is to me.

So by the time I had drooled all over the floor at Lorna Jane, I finally settled for the singlet that you see above in the picture. After I left Koko Black with a big block of dark chocolate, I was set to go home and hit the gym.

That my lovelies, is where I hit the wall in a crushing way.

We were meant to train shoulders and triceps today, but Michael decided to split it up and just train one. So the plan was to smash shoulders, but I couldn't do it. It didn't matter how hard I pushed myself and how much of a mental talking to I gave myself, I just couldn't get there today. So in the end Michael finished it by himself and I hit the bike for some cardio.

We had an easy fish and chips for dinner and now I am wondering why I did. I feel like dirt and no matter how many times I brush my teeth all I can taste is the oil. Ewwww, now I know why I don't eat fish and chips very often. I think later on when it finishes cooling down outside I will head off for a brisk walk.

It's weird how your body works against you when it comes to junk food. You get used to not eating it and when you all of a sudden want it and get it, it doesn't taste ANYTHING like you remember it and you just don't want it anymore.

I am starting my new eating plan in the morning. I couldn't do it today, due to the fact that we were stuck in the therapists office and it wasn't really appropriate. Not to mention I slept in and didn't have the time to prepare.

Tomorrow is our regular Saturday BBQ that Michael cooks and then on Sunday, we are taking all three kids ten pin bowling and then I will be able to take all my food with me. So that will help.

I still have two weeks to go before I have to get myself into my Ed Hardy top and if I start this eating plan tomorrow and stick to it, then I should be able to achieve that goal. I am going to stick my motivation pictures back on the fridge tonight and remind myself how wonderful those new rings are going to look on my skinny fingers.

I wonder if perhaps I am putting too much pressure on myself? I have done this before, and I don't know why it is so hard for me to do it again. I keep falling in a hole that I struggle to climb out of. I wish I knew what was going on in my head when it came to my eating.

Regardless of that I am determined to get thru the next two weeks on this eating plan and fit into that top and to have those rings sparkling on my finger on christmas day.

xoxox
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Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Ouch Ouch Ouch..........





Meet another one of my inspirations.

For those of you who don't know her face from around the traps and around facebook where she is a regular shining star.

This is the lovely Ellena Tsatsos. And she has given me the nickname, comp monster and it has stuck like glue. Haha. Evil girl she is.

She is an absolute sweetie and full of nice things to say.

An absolute inspiration to me.

Now - Dori, yes, that is my Michael or hubba hubba hubby as Rae calls Him. His back is huge ass at the moment. Not bad for a 47 year old man eh?

This is a recent bicep shot we took while we were training. Is it any wonder I think He is wonderful?

Just a quick peek in tonight and I promise to update in more detail tomorrow.

I am suffering major DOMS in my thighs and in my ass. I have muscles in my ass, that I never knew existed my lovelies and god damn it all, I am doing the two handed get up and sit down. So I know I am in pain.

I am feeling very rough around the edge's tonight, very achey, coughing a lot and generally very lethargic and I thought I was getting the flu, but thankfully it's just that I forgot my meds.

I suffer bi-polar and have for many years and we have finally found the perfect meds for it. But when I work night shift I don't take it at 4am in the morning, so when I do get up in the afternoon or evening and my body wants it, I start to suffer flu like symptoms. Thankfully they go away about twenty minutes after taking them and I am back to bouncing around crazily.

Things are going well in LJ land and I promise a much bigger update when I get up. Right now its 12.31am an I need some sleep.

Night!



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